Healing EMBARRASSMENT to heal our inner child and shine out into the world the way we want to.3/22/2024 Here I will channel from God about embarssement. These words are healing. To book coaching with me please click here
stan.store/rubylovetarot/p/book-3-months-coaching Okay let's Jump in! As children we have this vigour for life and we often shame ourselves into thinking oh why can't I just be the way I was? For me for example I used to sing and dance all the time. Till I took on shame programming that I wasn't good and that quote good singing didn't run in our family. Along with that I have had trauma I remember singing and dancing in a video on Christmas to my mom, hoping she would be there. and I saw the heart break in my aunts face when she realized I was singing to my mom, wishing she was there. All of these things add to our inability to sing. Not to mention Comparison and not feeling good enough. Perhaps not wanting to risk it all and have someone not like us. I want you to consider all of these things before you condemn yourself for not being that wild and free child. Not to mention the maturation and responsibilities that come with being an adult. THIS IS NOT A LETS HATE ON OUR CHILD SELF. I am simply pointing out that it's safe to have compassion for yourself if you are not running wild and free and picking flowers at this point. As an adult you are sorting through and healing years of trauma that you simply couldn't as a child. You are going deeper. I want to go into embarsement -em-bar-ass Basically implying that something that shouldn't be out: IS OUT and then what, what do we do???? WELL WE LOVE OURSELVES THROUGH IT. ITS REALLY THE ONLY WAY OTHERWISE WE STAY CAGED IN THE LINES OF NON EMBARSSEMENT and MOST THINGS WE WANT TO DO REQUIRE BARING OUR ASSES'S BEING OUR TRUE SELVES AND SHOWING THAT AND SPEAKING THAT REQUIRES YOUR ASS BEING OUT. SO LOVE YOURSELF AND REALIZE YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE AND ONLY BY BARING YOUR ASS WILL YOU RUN FREE AND WILD AGAIN SO BE WILD AND RUN WITH YOU BUM OUT
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Channeled perspective. Basically, the world is a simulation and the level of difficulty is about to increase. IE dark vs light darkest before the light as we shift things. NO NOT A DOOMSDAY. A revealing and beating of the boss so to say. AND MANY MANY MANY SOULS decided I am out. And that was their choice. But what happens to the rest of the people playing in these simulations in this next level? Well you need WAY more energy (money, or time working) to stay in this reality. Yes, Spirit is saying it’s just life. Life in this reality is more difficult because we are RAISING UP. People that choose to leave reality depending on their soul origin Either A - went back to their home planets -b are in the either to be reborn But most likely 99.1% went down a level. Very similar to suicide you end up going down a level. And in life, there is no saying how much worse that is. We are spiritually gunning for ascension and to get out of this reality and how to do that by fixing things. The words you get that you tolerate are ringing in my ears. I do feel humanity is very tolerant. For example, my job only gave me 3 days notice before my work date and I have to take care of my son because it's an evening job. Not only that I have to go in and the shift is a minimum of 3 hours. And pay for an Uber home. I lose 60% of my 3-hour pay to transportation. This is something I tolerate because I would rather have the $10 I make that night than make a fuss. And this is the situation humanity is in. Sure we live in poverty, but life is convenient. Sure we live life in addictions but health care is better than ever. Sure we lack connections but we have instant dopamine hits any second we need (like lab rats) So why change? That's the question. Why not just tolerate it? Well, a robber left unchecked robs more and more he/she doesn't say to themselves hmm that's enough now I have enough. It's about more. Why is this happening post covid? Well, it's to make life difficult. The closer we get to knowing god and completely dissolving these illusions the more difficult it becomes. If you would like to book a reading with me Please do so! Besides that thanks for reading this xoxo Lexx Reader I know I have to go deeper with my audience to really share more of my story to stop hiding and that there are new gifts to be shared at this new level.
I am going into more wealth more success and more beauty then ever in my life and it requires a bigger gift to get there. That I give even more to get there. To help even more women. I have escaped abuse and I am escaping poverty and being loved for looks only. They call it an escape for a reason. Girl is out here fighting for her life. 🥘 I know I am just being called to serve in a much bigger way. When the things that used to work don’t that just means your at a new level. What you used to get to your last level won’t work to get you to your next level What worked for you in your last level you can’t use here. - Garrian Jones. Check out Garrian Jones he went from in jail and homeless to successful and raising a family. He is a very committed partner and man and I am having father healing through watching him. But yeah I am going deeper I really want to help you, by helping myself and leading the way for you. I know I can do it. Will you join me?I know I have to go deeper with my audience to really share more of my story to stop hiding and that there are new gifts to be shared at this new level. I am going into more wealth more success and more beauty then ever in my life and it requires a bigger gift to get there. That I give even more to get there. To help even more women. I have escaped abuse and I am escaping poverty and being loved for looks only. They call it an escape for a reason. Girl is out here fighting for her life. 🥘 I know I am just being called to serve in a much bigger way. When the things that used to work don’t that just means your at a new level. What you used to get to your last level won’t work to get you to your next level What worked for you in your last level you can’t use here. - Garrian Jones. check out Garrian Jones he went from in jail and homeless to successful and raising a family. He is a very committed partner and man and I am having father healing through watching him. But yeah I am going deeper I really want to help you, by helping myself and leading the way for you. I know I can do it. Will you join me? A few spiritual reasons why we go through difficult stuff.
I wasn't always poor I wasn't always fat (gained over 100 pounds), I wasn't always depressed and I wasn't always single. I lived in beautiful wealthy cities. The reason I believe I am going through this in a deeper way is because as a kid I went through these things. I also believe so strongly that it is so I can help other people out of these situations. I have felt SUCH a lack of strength lately I have been surrounded by poverty and I guess for the first time I really feel what its like to live in the slums to live in poverty, and sure I live in Canada there is always deeper one could go into poverty just as there is always deeper one can go or expand into wealth. I however am not going any further into poverty. WHO KNOWS maybe I will be homeless I DON'T KNOW. but I do know that I have a way out and that I can help people out. For me before I made my way out but it was just for me. and I knew I couldn't take anyone with me because they couldn't receive what I was saying. But I KNOW there are moms and non moms out there FED UP CONFUSED AND SAD. STUCK PEOPLE WITHOUT FAMILY people that don't have the help people that come against privilege and stigma. You would think with my being a single mom that someone from my side of the family or the fathers (they have money btw) would help me with even 100 river is now 2 years old and not one person from our family has offered or asked if we were okay. Not once. I have asked for help in getting a vehicle to no avail. A vehicle to have so I could work. I saw this not because its there job to help me I SAY this so you know I KNOW what's its like to genuinely not have help from family. Especially from people that can help you but choose to turn a blind eye. I am here with you and trust me I have been helped by the community much more then family. When I moved to this city with my son I temporarily moved in with my ex. I moved in and having flown across the country I was starting over all for there son. The grandparents (who have money) didn't give river anything. I was so upset and crying. I really wanted food formula diapers and wipes for river. and I kid you not this lady off Facebook that they bought a used highchair from for 10$ who didn't know this, offered me some blocks and said they had extra formula and diapers if I wanted. of course I said yes thank you thank you. But get this they dropped off the toy blocks, baby food, wipes a box of diapers and 60$ of formula. and they left a receipt in the bottom. for over 100$ the stuff was bought not even 20 minutes before they dropped it off. The lady didn't have extra stuff she went and bought me that stuff. SOMEONE that didn't know me loved me and FAMILY did not. that was and is there choice. GOD IS ALWAYS LOVING YOU Thats why we can create whatever we want. I am in this position because people feel stuck and you may feel stuck and I am going to show I can go from that to being free in mind body and soul and in finances. So in conclusion I feel I am in this position to show you can get out of it and stay out of it. Amen and blessing and FOLLOW ME for more!! I just want you to know that I see you. I have been STRUGGLING. MY WHOLE LIFE I strived and KNEW I was destined for more. and YET I ended up in the same position as my mom and her mom. I at the age of 29 became a single MOM. This wasn't because of dumb decisions I dated the same guy on and off for 10 years and some may say that was a dumb choice. But to me committing to the person I loved the most was the right choice. But now looking back I can see how this is a pattern. A toxic pattern my mother also went through.
This isn't about me, if you are struggling I am here for you. Everything isn't the same after having a child. Everything is different. Society has a lot of weird beliefs Fat people are fat because they eat more/ eat junk food Fat people are lazy Single moms should have known better Single moms knew what they were getting into. Poor people just need to save more Poor people are wasteful and just choose to be that way. None of these things are true. AT ALL. But you know what I feel like its time to inspite of these societal beliefs to SUCCEED. I have the answer but it requires you letting go of all that doesn't serve you. INCLUDING GUILT. It's a mindset thing. That's all it is. and I have for the first time ever been 100% completely seeped or drowned in poverty consciousness and I will tell you it is worth the cost to get out. staying in poverty doesnt help people in poverty. I know for myself I have felt so bad for people in poverty I want to be right there with them like hey Im with you. LEAVE that to GOD. its not your job to be with poor people. It's your job to succeed for your life's sake. I am going to heal from OBESITY, DEPRESSION, POVERTY, DEBT, SINGLE MOTHERHOOD and you will watch me do it using the MIND. You are not alone. and you can do it too. God has been asking me to share about him. The truth is I am in love with God. and in truth, I always have been. I remember being 6 years old and being so in love with God. I was born into a family where I could express that love. But that love came with conditions that love came with the fear of the devil. I unfortunately was raised a Jehovah's Witness. Not soon after that young girl with her voracious efforts to share God with people. I started getting psychically abused by my "father." I didn't realize till later on just how many years I went on being abused and I never left. Once I was 14 I moved back in with my mom at her rehab center, because my dad choked me by putting his arm around my neck. I called the police on him and moved out. YEARS later my partner did that to me. Again I called the police and had him move out. Now what does this have to do with God? I guess what I want to say is that God hasn't left you. I remember crying many nights because I missed my mom. My dad has been abusive and I cried in the fetal position from age 11-12. I just wanted to be saved. God isn't here to save you, rather be with you. Be with you while you learn to say NO. To me, abuse felt safe. I hurt inside. it was a manifestation of my internal pain of missing my mom. Of feeling I could never get close to her. She wasn't emotionally and often not psychically available. She had troubles of her own. The thing about God is he doesn't leave. It seems like you are alone, but this isn't true. The truth tried to make my mom and dad God. But they aren't God, they are just people. I talk to god, I hang out with God and I ask god questions. I don't just take I do my best to consider God's feelings in our relationship. I am not interested in religious dogma. I am interested in love and butterflies. God wants you to know you are in a safe space. And if only you could see that you are safe, so much of your dream life could manifest. That's all for now. Lots of Love - Lexx and God
Respect
I respect him this is an internal shift that literally shifted in me. I think there comes a point where you learn you can trust a mans leadership and that he has your best interest at heart or that he doesn’t. I couldn’t respect him till I saw this. That I saw he cares more about my happiness than his. Not all the time but when it mattered. It allowed me to trust him with my respect. Trust I feel like respect for me comes from trust. Also respecting who the man is, how he is deciding to show up as a man and that he follows through on what he says he’s going to do. He has had a lot of options and he has stayed with me Long term. Yes he has flings over the years but I see that he doesn’t take them seriously. I guess this comes down to the feeling that he loves me above all other women. That is a very powerful thing. He has a stable job. It’s not so much about the job but the fact he gets up everyday to do it. It shows he has discipline and can commit to something longterm even when it’s hard. I find him extremely attractive and he has only gotten more attractive with time. This is a really good sign of me being attracted into old age. He takes marriage seriously. He is serious about no divorce. He isn’t desperate to get married or date. Even if he didn’t have options he would just be single. I wouldn’t say my man is close with his mom, but he is respectful of her. Ie no damaged view of women. This is a double standard forswore, as I a have a damaged view of men. But I have done everything I can to heal that. I spent my whole twenties with him. I am not really on the dating market anymore and I just realized that now (age 29.) I took myself years and years ago. I understand there are other things. Like hobbies, love. I do love him. I have shown that with my devotion. I personally don't feel a long term relationship should be based on mutual hobbies. Love, chemistry, morals and kindness are what I look for. You need to understand that a man is afraid of you not being happy and that you will leave him. Yes but also because this would be a huge hit to self esteem that may already be low and secondly it can be risky for a man to give you his all and then you leave him and ruin his life.
I would say if a man isn't valueing you enough he may not even care about this stuff. Ie you won't meet his friends, he won't ask about your friends. This is more for a serious dating/relationship. But it can help you get from where you are to be taken more seriously. Point 1 Pointing out that something is expensive. (He is worried the life he can provide you isn't enough.) Even if you work, there may be time where you do depend on him. Also you may dislike the overall lifestyle longterm, which he feels reflects on him as a man. So of course he will choose someone he feels he can please. This could be why a guy gets offended if things are expensive it’s more a reflection what he feels he can provide you. Point 2 He tests to see if other men are around you / you are open to them. This can be ex boyfriends, ex hookups via text or socials or even friend groups. Or comments like an example I just had was a guy said did your sugar daddy buy you that. Obviously I don’t have one of those and I reassured him that if I had any “sugar daddy” that is would be him and I only am interested in him. But this does show the insecurity in men of both point one and two. Point 3 Pictures on line. You need to decide if this is your husband or not. In your own heart and if he is, I highly suggest taking down any nude photos or bikini photos off socials. Same goes for overt partying photos. Even if a man says he’s okay with this, its very likely he isn’t for a long term relationship. I can think of one exception for this. But the women is extremely beautiful and she ( this is key) isnt doing it for attention!! She genuinely loves her body and freedom and that is different. I would argue that every other person I have met wants attention on some level. If you are not a hippie don’t have nudes up on socials. WHY? 1. It makes him insecure because you are staying open to other options even if it is only a like. 2. You are representing him if you are married. Even if you look hot, a lot of me feel that is for them. Okay you can say well then that isn’t my guy. THIS IS ADVICE FOR WOMEN THAT HAVE FOUND THEIR GUY THAT THEY WANT TO LOVE, HONOUR AND LIVE THERE LIFE FOR AND WITH. I am in no way saying you have to follow this advice, or anything of that nature I am just sharing what God has shown me through research and my new understanding of INSECURITY IN MEN. Think about it if you want a man to take a risk to marry you, then you want him to feel as secure as possible in himself, in you, in his choice to marry you and in the long term suitability of your marriage. Being open to other men just ain’t it. If you are not willing to take a risk and publicly close off other options why should he…(Social Media vs Marriage) Yes some guys have “hot” pics up too and they do get hit on by women but this advice for you. It’s for you to determine if that is the guy for you or not. Point 4 He will see if you embarrass him in front of his friends and family. Now this one hits close to home. Because I grew up having so many guys friends ( See the next point ) I often went about trying to make my mans male friends my friends. I had no understanding of male psychology and to be honest was still operating on a very elementary school level. But I would often embarrasses, yell at or just make my man look dumb to have his friends like me more. Why did I do this. Because I wanted leverage if he broke up with me. I also wanted the friends to side with. Me if my man treated me poorly. This is something I no longer do. As a wife and even a good gf its your job to support your man and make him look good to his friends and family. I never make a rude comment about him. And even when his friends and family mention a flaw or embarrassing thing he did. I am silent or I don’t point out that it’s embarrassing I just go along with the story and let the moment pass. Point 5 Do you have MALE FRIENDS. This honestly is the most cringy one looking back. I will say as a young women I was very open to being friends with all types of people. I didn’t understand my value or what I was adding just by being around some of these men. There were platonic friends I had NO BUSINESS hanging out with, looking back especially when I was in a committed relationship. I’m talking going for car rides, dinners and even movie nights with these friends. We all hung out in groups many times too but still. Over time I slowly made more female friends and I feel that is the best position you can be in. I know when I was younger I didn’t like the drama of female friends but with self improvement you can find great longterm female friends. I committed a couple years back to no longer entertain any male attention, dms, liking of pics etc if it wasn’t from my person. Again this is about not having your options open and understanding your worth and value in a mans eyes. You can have male friends in groups but don’t hang out or talk with them one on one. If you are single and looking for your person this point is even more important because that is time you could spend on yourself or meeting your person. I know this is some jarring information. Wishing you the best. Xoxo Lexx Source: https://www.youtube.com/@JustPearlyThings Wondering if Unicorn energy is real and how they help guide you on your spiritual journey? This Post is for you I go over all the reasons that Unicorns and Pegasus energy is amazing. Okay so I mean this in the most loving way as someone who started their spiritual journey by reading the power of now, consciousness books and Loa Tzu principles. I remember thinking back ten years ago “If I ever get into or believe in unicorns, I'll be out to lunch...” Throughout the years, I have connected more and more with dragons, fairies, guides etc. but for some reason Unicorns just seemed too out there. Recently in I would say the most difficult time in my entire life after feeling like my life was ruined after doing 6 sessions of shadow work. See link for shadow work I did with Teal Swan. Video Link Diana Cooper’s Pick a Card website has led me to connect with these majestic unicorn creatures. What I love about Unicorns and Pegasus energy; 1) They want to be close to you. Let me explain, there is a warm close calm energy I receive and like they don’t mind or even enjoy always being close to you and keep a watchful eye on you. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that right now I am pregnant and just got a puppy that always wants to be near me. 2) They love children, and help so much with inner child healing. First, they love children, as I mentioned I am pregnant but I also see a lot of children’s shirts and such with unicorns. The feeling must be mutual! Inner child healing, it is not the first time I have had flooding thoughts of my very terrible childhood and abuse but I do feel a healing energy around me as these thoughts get purged out! 3) The MAIN reason I love unicorns is they are gentle; they believe in you and they never lie! I don’t know what it is yet but when I pull cards or feel this guide. There is this you can do anything energy! This it doesn’t matter where you have been it only matters who you are now. Your character each moment. Even if you slip up there is a feeling, they will forgive you. 4) They encourage Patience. They are very nonviolent creatures and have really encouraged me to be more patient and trust me I have a lot to be patient about right now! 5) I have no one psychically around me that believes in me, Except them! 6) I do feel they bond 1:1 with you. Although different ones may come in to assist for different things at certain times, especially if you call them in. There is a sense I have that you have a main life guide or one that sticks with you 24/7. Yes, I just got a vision of one sleeping by you while you sleep. This could be why I haven't been having nightmares lately! Okay but I WONDER how does this magical creature fit in my tiny tiny room lol!! Receive your own personalized guidance and readings here https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/RubyLoveTarot?ref=seller-platform-mcnav |
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